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Haciéndote desear no saber leer desde 1992

Mocha and Concha

Haciéndote desear no saber leer desde 1992

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rough lover

Posted on June 5, 2026

sometimes I wonder why

« I break everything I love »

put a twinkle in your eye

by ear

Posted on May 31, 2026May 31, 2026

I’m alone

I’m on my knees, and I’m alone

Finally, the world has accomplished its goal, and I’m down on my knees

I look up at the distance, used to be so high not long ago.

I’m not even mad at being down here again,

I always said it would be nice to visit,

But did I really have to chase the cheese?

Ahora sé lo que sienten los melones.

That’s what I get

for doing my own stunts.

And here it goes again,

The most prominent proof of the wreckage in my brain.

My lifestyle, driving me places I never meant to be.

I thought deserts were the only ones with mirages,

How did this water get in my ears?

It builds, like a JBL speaker,

And yet there’s no one here.

There it is, the song only I can hear,

It plays every time I am at wit’s end,

where is Sacks when you need him?

The melody fills my ears, yet the fear grows louder,

And then I feel it, the chills in my skin.

Is that your leitmotif?

It is me, not you

Posted on May 31, 2026

I am broken, I’ve come to learn

This was news to me,

did you know?

Was it obvious?

Some type of support I turned out to be.

Turns out broken people

are not

the best load bearing beams.

I apologize deeply

for the pain I caused

by not knowing myself.

Eros

Posted on May 25, 2026May 25, 2026

i was younger, like 20 years ago, used to be that for every fear, there was a love.

in that world things made sense,

i made sense

philias

Posted on May 23, 2026May 23, 2026

I almost drowned.

Once.

Long ago.

But it happened.

Since then I’ve met all kinds of people with varying degrees of aquaphobia.

I’m not afraid, I say, even though I am; I respect water and acknowledge their might.

I play it safe.

Almost always.

Except when you’re anywhere near.

Your Sirenity is contagious to such a degree,

at times I forget to respect the sea.

I want to swim.

I want to understand.

Why even though you’re afraid of the dark,

also yearn for the depth.

:)

Posted on May 16, 2026

sink goblin

ley del hielo

Posted on April 4, 2026

I had a dream last night.

I can’t remember why or how,

it is a mystery to me,

you held the answer to everything.

And you wouldn’t speak to me.

Today, (I) assumed

Posted on March 15, 2026March 15, 2026

I was disoriented, not knowing why I had spent so much time in a clothing warehouse or why the sun felt so bright to my eyes. It felt like summer but the decor made me think of winter instead.

I spent days looking at designer clothes with brand names I had never heard of before and of sizes I could never be able to wear. I moved around the floor wearing roller-blades, making it easier to explore.

I looked at the clock and knew I had to be somewhere else, it was getting late and didn’t want the sunset to get me while still on the way. They would be mad if that happened.

I rolled to the edge of the warehouse where the entrance was located and took off the blades while onlookers paid little to no attention to the figure on the floor struggling to put on a pair of shoes.

“You can’t be here”, someone said, hurrying me out of the door.

I was walking down Clavijero street when I noticed my laces were still untied, put down my messenger bag for a second in order to tie them properly and when I looked back the bag was gone. I saw two strangers sitting at the top of a raise on the concrete, snickering. There was a big tree besides us, the most likely reason for the sidewalk to be in this state.

I walked around the raised part of the street, with the eyes of the strangers tracking my every movement. I picked up my bag. I didn’t know how it was that it had gotten there, but had a couple of ideas. I patted some of the dirt away and looked at the strangers, their faces turning into a frown.

I started walking down the street again, they followed. I walked faster, and so did they. No one else was on the street, and cars going the other way didn’t seem to mind us at all.

I started running down Clavijero, like so many times in the past. One of them slipped and fell. The street can catch off-guard even to the most experienced locals.

I reached the intersection with Juarez and screamed “they’re the ones!”, and suddenly two people started chasing the chasers.

“We’ll take care of them, but you have to meet with the others” a man dressed in uniform told me.

“My roller-blades!”, I said, and started walking back to the warehouse, taking a different street that, if memory served, also connected with Clavijero.

But it didn’t.

“Wasn’t there a road right here”, I asked to one of the neighbors while pointing towards a school building I didn’t remember at all. “It’s been years since that road was closed”.

The hues of orange illuminating the street behind me, and the darkness engulfing the street in front of me, made me realize how late I was already. I went downhill, looking over my shoulder every couple of steps, but no one followed.

“Almost late, as always” the guard greeted me. “Almost”, I replied.

After a few hours of work, we gathered at the main office to talk about what else we had to do, when someone started kicking at the door.

I opened the door as the woman at the other side started taking flight to lounge another kick. I recognized her immediately.

“EMIKO?!?!”

“Why are you being so chummy with her, asshole?”

“EMIKO-CHAN!?!?”

“That’s not any better!”

I looked at Emiko, her face looking confused, probably surprised to see someone she couldn’t place, but somehow knew of her. Dumbfounded enough to stop her kicking motion, which I was grateful for.

“Have we met?”

“You have, mom. You spent a whole night drinking with him and talking about god knows what” said a voice I knew too well, while she got between the two of us in the distance reserved for a kick that didn’t happen. Her bangs filling my point of view.

“Oh yes! Whatsyourname-san! What are you doing here?”, Emiko said over Hana’s shoulder.

I have thought of this moment, of this reunion, for a long time. Countless scenarios, countless results.

We embraced, like we had done so many times in the past.

“It’s been so long, thought I’d never see you again”, I said.

Emiko mumbled something I couldn’t comprehend.

And then everything faded away.

****sick

Posted on March 12, 2026March 19, 2026

This memory of mine doesn’t work in the way I want. And that is, when it does seem to work. When it doesn’t, it leads some to believe that I may be farther than I appear.

I’ve thought about you, the collective you, and all the things that could have happened, had I stayed on the path a little longer. Not better things, but different.

I miss moments, sparks in a quiet existence. And yet, I don’t truly miss anything, for often times I know when it is. It is me who doesn’t know how to swim back to that river.

I’m ashamed of the things i remember: great meaning and deep feelings, encapsulated in trivial and sometimes vulgar moments that no one would look at twice; I play them ad nauseam in my head.

red arrow

Posted on February 25, 2026

I’m on a train on the other side of the world. They don’t make them like this on our side. You are both farther than when I left yet closer from when you left. I hadn’t thought of that until this very moment.

It’s odd being the one who stays, that’s why I had to leave. Do not fret, I’m sure I’ll be back before you do.

The girl by my side started writing a letter while going through the Italian country, which made me think of writing this. I’m pretty sure we’re sharing a space with an Olympian too, but I can’t really ask her. I’m not familiar with the protocol to approach a suspected athlete.

It’s been a fun experiment trying to communicate without knowing the language. Making all sort of gestures and noises, and getting excited when they get you (or an idea of you). Maybe if I had started saying « I don’t speak your heart’s language », things would’ve been different. I see some understanding when they know I don’t get them, and yet I try.

Last night something unpleasant happened, and I was able to handle it better than when we both were together. It’s been so long now, that I dare say I have grown since we happened to each other. Not enough to reach you, or thinking of trying, though.

The girl at the shop in Barcelona warned me that their gummies would give me bad dreams. I’m not saying you were a bad one, but you showed up in my head. Longing to be who you wanted instead of being wanted by you in my current form, even if in the dream realm, may have been the nightmare part.

I’ve recently heard tales of cycles that some thought had ended, and yet the story continues. In a different time, in a different shape, but some more ink runs through old pages. I am sick of remakes and revivals, but wouldn’t mind if one of these roads led to moRe.

Ciao, bella.

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